currently, me.

hello. :]
so I plan on writing a blog later on in the week, simply because I've been planning on writing a blog about the things I'm thankful for [because Thanksgiving and everything, I know cliche, oh well]. but I really wanted to write an informative blog...I've done to many on facebook haha, so I'm gonna do one on here.
ahem. 25 things on my heart/about me/thoughts.

1. I am falling in love with Jesus. better and more so than ever, ever, ever, ever before. I've always loved Jesus, I can't remember not loving Him. But there's this overwhelming love that has been washing over me, coming from Him and I can't really go anywhere without it somehow leaking into my conversations. I used to get irritated with when people would talk aboutJesus all the time, it felt corney whenever I would do it...but I've been really asking God to break that in me. Because the more I reflect Him, the more blessed I feel, the more change happens... the more healing comes in. phew. it's incredible.

2. I am really silly. As I've become more comfortable with who I am [who God's made me to be] I have become ridiculously more ridiculous. And more blonde apparently? I was talking to my brother on the phone, searching desperately around in my car for my phone...mmm. hehe, apparently, it's more fun this way though...

3. Being Jesus with people is way more fun...than not being.

4. I am studying a lot to hopefully start nursing school in January.

5. Taking a month off of facebook was one of the best things I have ever done.

6. My best friend, Nicole is now engaged. It's crazy. When did I become old enough to know what to do with this? But, it's exciting, although it has me thinking a lot on romance, relationships, etc.

7. uhmmm relationships. geez. They're so messy sometimes, but it's a huge risky, scary, exciting, fun, mess of emotions. Lots of give and take, testing things out. I guess where I'm coming from right now is simply this; I am done with the game. Longing all the time for some guy to give you attention instead of waiting for the right one...is the wrong way to go about life. And yes, it's taken this long for me to get this... I think I've caught glimpses of it from time to time in my life, but just recently...I've really owned it.

8. Speaking of guys, I have to watch which ones I trust my heart to. Not just in a romantic way, just in the way of giving my time and my care to? Yeah, that's what I mean. I love the guy friends I have, all their different temperments and opinions and personalities. I love it, it teaches me about all different kinds of people and how I interact them. But I am not to be used...and I need to use discernment to who I give myself, time and energy to. Not giving to much away to just any guy, saving it for my husband; the man who is going to win my heart.

9. Like I said, a lot on relationships.

10. I'm not ready for one yet...lol...Jesus is still healing me and romancing me to Him right now, and it's such a wonderful experiance.

11. I have been learning a lot about learning about how to be a woman that a man would want to lead. I think a lot of it has to do with me yeilding my heart to Jesus... becoming dependent on Him, that way my anxious thoughts and my movements of "trying to make things happen", in a sense, taking control of the situation, are put aside...therefore not pursuing...opening a door for a guy to do it.

12. ANYWAYSSSS.
Christmas is coming, and I'm freaking out about all the decorations...when Thanksgiving hasn't even come yet. geez.

13. I love having sleepovers, Sarah's been the one who's come over my house a couple nights after IHOP on Saturdays. It's fun, it reminds me of being little...and I like things that make me feel that way.

14. I love movie days. By myself. With other people. With running commentaries. With good music in it. On sofas.

15. I have a lot of pink things...I try to not buy so many pink things...and somehow I still end up having them. lol...bit of a hopeless cause.

16. I love families that are made up of other families...it's probably one of the best feelings in the entire world.

17. I have some of the best people in my life. I say that all the time, but right now, I am blown away by it. Often times I just sit back and take it in. I ask God all the time, how did I get this blessed?

18. Pretty much the only music I love LOVE listening to right now is worship and country. Pretty much says exactly how I am feeling about life right now.

19. I am excited for Winter Kingslove, go figure, haven't been a fan until this year. I'm excited to see God use and choose new people who are stepping up to the plate.

20. Being twenty was/is really difficult, I don't remember learning so much about me, life, etc. until this year...I have been asking for it, so...that explains it...but, still. I am happy that the year is almost over, I will beginning a new phase of life hopefully and also that I am ending the year with a great resolve.

21. I am already really excited about my birthday!!! :] and no, it's not because I will be drinking age, I get excited about birthdays all the time. I am plotting pretty seriously about what I want to do for it...got some ideas.

22. Pandora = Love. I have recently listening to nothing else while I am home. I know it's been around for a while, but...I've never listened to it until recently. I have definitely fallen in love with all of these different songs. I love love love it.

23. I can't wait for winter break, for everyone to be home...there something so awesome and normal about it. Life gets less and less familiar all the time.

24. I text a lot.

25. I love saying "I love you" to people. :]


the end.