tired but awakened.

Another long week of school come and gone. My life is a frantic horse-runaway train combo that gives me a few days to re-focus and then go barreling into the next week.
I call this a passing week :]
Everything I did this week was passed and achieved. Wonderrfffulllllnnnesssssss!!!
mm mm mm.

I am still quite exhusted but my heart is so awake.
Last night, instead of my regular set at C-HOP, the Kanas City IHOP was on the screen and we worshipped and prayed with them for like 3 hours or so. It was so good. On many levels. But specifically, God really spoke to my heart about things that are so relevent in my life. Struggles and insecurities. It's always amazing to me when I hear things that resonate inside of me, reminding me that God knows.

The guy on the screen [lol], was talking about how somehow where along the line we have began to come into agreement with the devil. Even if we repent for sin, it keeps coming back, because somewhere along the line we agree with a lie we have been told. That in essence was what he was saying, there was so much more, but that stuck to me like a thorn...that just led to my heart breaking, repenting for coming into agreement with the lies.


Such a challenge. I never realized every little thing that could feed into something so strong...something like hearing that your worthless, stupid, ugly. Perverted words people have used towards you. Ideas that have been shot down. Those are the things I renounce from my life, in the name of Jesus.
I might be tired, but the past 24 hours have gentely, yet fiercely brought me to my knees and have held my heart.

Something else that was said was that what God did for you yesterday is not good enough for you today. You need to ask for more.
Every morning, His mercies are new.

Thank you Jesus, for loving us so much to come and be with us when we call for you. You are worthy God, yet you take delight in us. Thank you for not leaving, giving up, throwing up your hands or deciding you didn't want to die for us. For being faithful, true and just. Love you.